Friday, July 01, 2005
Took from my fren's blog..
Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u wen out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
7/01/2005 01:51:00 PM*
Friday, June 24, 2005
Oooo.. Haven update for quite some time already.. but it doesn't really matter isn't it since it's not frequently visited by people anyway.. I'm not SPG or Xiaxue either whose blog gets so much attention everytime they wrote an entry.. Juz feeling lost for the past month or so.. On a couple of occasion, i actually updated my blog but removed it soon after.. Maybe i'm juz afraid to let people know how i think and feel.. It has been some time.. i should have gotten over it.. But then again i guess maybe not.. I know u will keep ur promise, i failed to keep mine.. Blame me if u wan to..
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Today was the registration of modules for next sem. Went to the CITS lab to do it coz Gary said its lucky there.. Pantang~~ True enuff, both me n Gary managed to get the time slots we wanted, together with weeching n tiffany.. Wun be lonely for lesson next sem.. Haha.. I need to seriously consider whether to stick with my 2 day week or spread it out more. I do quite like my timetable actually, but its 6 hrs for each day... Maybe its alittle bit packed.. Nvm... Shall see if i can manage to overload the IT module first before finalising the timetable..
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My ge result is out today too.. I got a B~~ Totally unexpected, given the fact the i only went for like 4 lectures out 12? Plus i stared at the paper for 15mins, couldn't even understand the definition of the terms inside.. Juz happy abt it.. Went to dig out the paper and the questions i attempted for the paper..
1a. Explain why the drive to establish intimacy with people is a basic part of our human nature. Compare this need for relationships to our basic need for safety and security.
1b. State concisely the negative consequences that energe when the need for intimacy is obstructed.
2a. Clarify how self-knowledge could help to promote our personal well being
2b. Enumerate 5 ways to reduce our perosnal blind spots in our daily life
2c. Explain ith examples how openess and flexibility are important factors that contribute positively to fulfilling relationships
3a. State concisely the factors that help to sustain romantic passion at the start of love relationship
3b. Why does romantic passion dissipate so rapidly? Explain why companion love tends to be more stable over the longer term
4a. Analyse how family themes operate in the family. Clarify how such themes are perpetuated down the generations
4b. Describe 4 ways to promote healthy family interaction that is free of negative triangulation
Its not a bad choice of ge if anyone of u wan something slack and able to smoke thru.. At least i managed to do that.. Its GP12, not too late to do add/drop for the ge..
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Anyway, past few days was the nbs foc seniors camp. Long time since we gathered in large groups, cheering, playing orientation games. Although its only the seniors camp, but it was still fun.. Recollecting the cheers we had last year, going through some of the games we played before.. Its all beautiful memories.. Hope the camp this year will be even better than last year' s.. I can already feel the orientation mood in me.. So looking forward to meeting the freshies next sat.. But i think we still lacking the Gavi spirit, pls pls, let us all come together to make this camp memorable for us as seniors..
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I'm so selffish.. i should tell her abt everything that had happened.. But i din.. I juz dunno how to do it.. Wat will happen after she knows? Will things change? I dunno wat she's thinking, how she feels.. Maybe i'm juz thinking too much?? I really need someone to tell me wat to do..
6/24/2005 11:52:00 PM*
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
I went for my GE lect today, after ponning the previous 2 lectures.. Trying to recall some of the things that the prof talks about.. As usual.. there's no notes again for most of the things he said, so maybe i will write abit down so that i can revise for my exams which is next week? haha..
First is associative errors.. People tend to make quick association based on only one or 2 few personality traits.. For example.. When a gal see a guy whu is kind.. she will associate and perceive that this guy will be generous and gives alot to charitytoo .. which means that he will treat everybody around him nice too.. which means that he will treat his gf well too.. which means that he will be a good husband too.. And therefore, this guy is a good catch and the gal will choose him thinking that 'hey.. this guy will make a good bf n good husband becoz he is kind'
So what that that equal to? Kind = Good husband.. It may sound absurd but it happens isn't it.. So often ppl just relate personality traits to another without realising that good traits and bad traits can and usually do exist together.. U can be good in certain things but definitely u will be inferior in others.. A person can be kind and yet selfish.. He can be nice to people but a wife-beater.. But people often fail to see this..
This is oso due to the fact that humans have a natural tendency to reject negatives ideas contradicting to his believes... For example.. Once u perceived a person to be a great guy, u will reject all the negative things abt that person.. He could have done something wrong time n time again but u will dispel that as a one time event and because the situation resulted in his action and not his personality.. N no matter wat happens, u will strongly put off all those
issues contradicting to what u perceived that person to be.... A common line will goes something like "Nah.. There must be a reason y he does that.. He not this kind of person.."
Similarly if u see a person to be bad.. whatever he does, u will just "aiyah.. its just him lah.. he's always liydat".. See the difference??
Probably thats why people always sae that first impression is important.. But if do that, u r making the biggest mistake... N if u do that, u just another of those superficial bastards.. N if u label people based on just what u think he is.. If u think a person is going to be that NICE as u sees him... then DUN REGRET it...
5/31/2005 01:46:00 AM*
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Its 12hrs of work at suntec today.. becoz of the world book fair.. Work is getting more enjoyable recently.. N i'm not mad when i sae this k.. We had our own fun during work today... But if not becoz i promised my boss that i will work todae, i rather choose not to work todae.. Dun ask me why..
Actually i wrote a very long entry again.. but deleted everything again.. I guess some things r still meant to be kept to myself.. I dun wan to say things that will hurt other ppl..
I see alot of ppl shifting their blog.. maybe i shld shift mine too?? haha.. maybe to a really private blog..
5/29/2005 11:40:00 PM*
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
GE results r out... Ermm.. Not going to disclose my spanish results though.. N as expected, my mei must have 'prayed damn hard' last night before she sleeps.. Gotten herself an A for spanish.. I'm happy for ya too n i believe u will do well for the rest of the papers as well... Just go n pray harder.. haha.. So happy rite gal? Laughing so happily over the phone in the afternoon... *slaps*
I'm not unhappy with my results either k... Its just a GE anyway.. Like i say.. Its good enough.. Looking at the effort i put in during the exam period, couldn't expect much either.. Life is fair isn't it? U will never get the result u wan if u dun deserve it... Who will slack the whole day before an important paper? me.. Who behaves like exams are over 1 week before it actually ends with 2 papers yet to finish? me..
Maybe i should learn to pray like my mei.. Looks like it works for her all the time.. *pray**pray* for the rest of my results... Or i can choose to stick around her more often to get some of her luck.. But apparently it doesn't work when she check my spanish result for me today... Another 10 more days for the real worry..
5/17/2005 03:49:00 AM*
Saturday, May 14, 2005
I just woke up.. ermm.. wasn't too late considering i slept at 8 am? 8 hrs of sleep. just nice.. First time went for bash until so late.. People starting to drag me out at 2 plus but the few of us still went back.. Actually we din dance anymore after that, just hang ard the place.. Left Chinablack at 4 plus i think.. Sat outside Chinablack with Limin, Alicia, kianwee n his unconscious friend until 6 am before we start to go home..
Anyway, thanks people for last night.. I know u all are concerned.. Must have given u people a shock last night.. I myself never drink that much before, not during a bash.. That glass of 'waterfall' .. 25 bucks for a glass.. Plus tequila shots (i only remembered there was 19 on the table) after that and a few jugs before that.. I think a few more shots will make me KO on the spot... Lucky i din drink that much after that.. Lemme see.. i think i spent 100 over on drinks alone? including those i treat my mei.. N did i forget to mention that i smoked 3/4 of a stick of cigarette.. My mom is going to kill me if she knows about it..
Alicia n jieying.. Thanks for just sitting ard with me at the table.. For telling me so many things.. I understand all the things that u 2 told me last night.. i remember the long long sms that jieying showed me (i wasn't drunk k).. In fact the more u all talk, the more i couldn't control myself.. Tears fell.. Its the first time i felt so helpless i guess.. Had to be comforted by 2 gals.. N of coz there's still my buddies kianwee, raine n my mei limin whu stayed around me when i need u guys..
N yupz.. I will look forward to our JB seafood trip on thurs.. Wanted to go together since last semester holidaes but never had the chance to.. No excuses not to go this time..
5/14/2005 04:21:00 PM*
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Just read my fren's blog... I think a gal's thinking is so hard to guess n unpredictable.. She wanted more personal space, she wanted the time to think about it.. She got it all.. She got the peace and personal space she wanted.. But now it seems like she feels she is no longer desired.. She feels that the guy doesn't treat her the same way anymore.. Ironic isn't it? I'm not saying u r wrong k.. Just wondering y u will feel that way..
The best way is always to talk it out.. If u dun, he will never know wat u r thinking about.. Dun always assume he can feel wat u r thinking.. Or things will return to normal if u dun do anything about it.. It will never be the same.. Dragging on makes both parties hurt more..
5/01/2005 07:11:00 PM*
